Urgh

[soc_puppet]

Work today was a series of little annoyances exacerbated by heavy indoor humidity. Like, overall my day wasn't technically terrible, but so many tiny things added up to just make me kinda miserable. Probably the worst is that they didn't end at work; I just now discovered one of the many minor discomforts of my day was actually underboob chafing from what had, prior to today, been my favorite bra.

I want to give myself permission to have just... had a bad day, but I also know that I tend to hold onto moods a long time. I also still have work tomorrow and need to get a handle on myself before then, because that's not the kind of energy I want to bring with me and probably affect not just my own day, but everyone's.

Tuesday I've got a doctor's appointment in the morning, but after that I'm off work at least until Friday, so hopefully the extra rest will help.

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[mistressofmuses]

I hope the rest does help!

I hate the way that a crappy mood can linger. :/ Having lousy days happens, and it's totally allowable to just have a bad day that you feel bad about... but I know the experiece of it then sticking around. Hopefully you can get a sort of reset and feel better!

[soc_puppet]

It did indeed help!

copperbadge reblogged something on Tumblr a while ago, and added in his own notes that part of the "lingering mood" problem might be related to ADHD time blindness: Whatever event may as well have happened two minutes ago as two hours ago, so you still feel it as strongly. It would honestly explain why I tend to "carry" the mood of whatever media I most recently consumed with me, making me very choosy about what I listen to on the drive to work (or at work, for that matter). It would also help explain why having a good sleep can help, or my other immediate go-to, finding something that makes me feel "good" harder than whatever "bad" I'm feeling: It creates a clean break between the "bad" thing from Before and the new, better feelings. And, in my experience, sleep is a better hard reset on my mood than most other things, though dreams can also complicate things.

...Pardon my ramble there 😅

[mistressofmuses]

Oooh, that's an interesting theory. That would make sense to me! I hadn't ever really thought of the two being related, but that element of having a hard time quantifying the passage of time really does seem like it could impact how quickly (or unquickly, really) you're able to let go of emotional states.