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soc_puppetSocchan: *takes important steps in self-care*
Life: This is getting way too easy. Time for complications!
Socchan: ...Goddammit.
So! I'm pretty sure I'm officially depressed, or near-constantly teetering on the edge of depression, which isn't really that much better. I made an appointment for therapy at my most recent visit to the psychiatrist, so that's definitely a step in the right direction, and I'm also in an upswing at the moment, which means that I'm not actively feeling completely like shit or constantly sleeping to escape - but that may be about to change.
My mom's older sister has been battling cancer for... longer than anyone probably knows. She's been nearly constantly sick (cough, feeling lousy) for a few years now, but the doctors only just found the tumors a few months ago - not long after that family vacation I took in November, actually. It was going pretty well; it isn't/wasn't a strain of cancer that has a real sure-fire "cure", but it has a great treatment that can keep people going pretty much indefinitely. Unfortunately, after her most recent round of chemo, things took a sharp turn for the worse, and now the doctors are giving her days at most.
Mom is really broken up about it, and I can't blame her. It's gotta be really bad for my cousins, too, who lost their father less than a decade ago, also to cancer. (Cancer fucking bites, end of story.) So I'm driving my mom to the airport at dark o'clock tomorrow morning so she can hop on a plane and hopefully have some time with her sister.
Prayers are welcome from those who are so inclined, as are good thoughts from everyone.
I've got more to talk about re: work and so forth, and how things are getting both better and worse there (better because class is (mostly) out and I'm not expected to be responsible for students learning, worse because one of my coworkers recently quit and now I'm opening several times a week as opposed to my previous several times a year), but that can wait until later. Right now I need sleep so I can drive safely tomorrow.
Life: This is getting way too easy. Time for complications!
Socchan: ...Goddammit.
So! I'm pretty sure I'm officially depressed, or near-constantly teetering on the edge of depression, which isn't really that much better. I made an appointment for therapy at my most recent visit to the psychiatrist, so that's definitely a step in the right direction, and I'm also in an upswing at the moment, which means that I'm not actively feeling completely like shit or constantly sleeping to escape - but that may be about to change.
My mom's older sister has been battling cancer for... longer than anyone probably knows. She's been nearly constantly sick (cough, feeling lousy) for a few years now, but the doctors only just found the tumors a few months ago - not long after that family vacation I took in November, actually. It was going pretty well; it isn't/wasn't a strain of cancer that has a real sure-fire "cure", but it has a great treatment that can keep people going pretty much indefinitely. Unfortunately, after her most recent round of chemo, things took a sharp turn for the worse, and now the doctors are giving her days at most.
Mom is really broken up about it, and I can't blame her. It's gotta be really bad for my cousins, too, who lost their father less than a decade ago, also to cancer. (Cancer fucking bites, end of story.) So I'm driving my mom to the airport at dark o'clock tomorrow morning so she can hop on a plane and hopefully have some time with her sister.
Prayers are welcome from those who are so inclined, as are good thoughts from everyone.
I've got more to talk about re: work and so forth, and how things are getting both better and worse there (better because class is (mostly) out and I'm not expected to be responsible for students learning, worse because one of my coworkers recently quit and now I'm opening several times a week as opposed to my previous several times a year), but that can wait until later. Right now I need sleep so I can drive safely tomorrow.
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Date: 2015-05-31 02:12 am (UTC)no subject
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