Pipe Dreams
Mar. 16th, 2006 06:03 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
soc_puppetReally had meant to make this post instead of the other one, but the spontaneous style switch was just a bit much after a long car trip. (After some looking around it seems to have happened to a good number of the journals set with the default style and not just mine or just a few. At least I stick out a little more now? And the auto-save draft thing got a bit messed up too, from the looks of things. And my Friends Page. The comment links for some entries are only showing up at the top of the page and I'm forced to guess which one goes with which entry. Only four so far, thankfully, but I'm still curious how this will play out...)
I've been thinking a lot lately about what I really want to do with my life. Mostly it's been because of all the questions about it, especially during break time in Quire rehersals. And I've come to something of a realization:
I want to be a manga-ka.
Okay, no, that's not exactly the realization that I came to. I've known for some time that I've wanted to do something with art or writing and preferably both at once, especially if I can tell a story with it. I've also known that there's basically no way that I'd be able to make a living off of it, or even make ends meet, and I'm not going to live in my parent's basement for the rest of my life; it wouldn't be good for any of us.
The realization is that I want to do it anyway.
I've known for a while now that I would probably have to find some other job to support myself with, and I've resigned myself to it. Because of this I've been putting off choosing a major, because I always thought that it would have to have something to do with the job I'd eventually take, whatever it would be. I lacked direction for a long time, and I still do to an extent.
But now I want to try for it. I want to take as many art and writing classes as I can, and then other random classes that I think might help me with it. And when I go out into the world and find a job, it may not be exactly what I've always wanted, but I'll be working on my dream anyway. I'll be writing and drawing in my free time and hopefully coming up with something to try and publish. If I even manage to make back the money I'll have spent putting a book out I will be happy, I think. (Hope for anything more will be hidden in the back of my sock drawer--not to be taken out very often or for very long, but still there nonetheless.)
That was, of course, what I was vaguely hoping to do with Magical Girl Icka. (Well, barring the actual resolution to do it.) Except thenJeva Po'e Icka MoF Other Fangirls happened and now it's probably a bad idea. And then I was rather lost for inspiration, so I dug through my old idea closet.
Scrapped more than a few of them on the basis that they Weren't Going To Happen (including one that really isn't much more than a title and the explanation behind the title--"Yo! Kaitou!" or somesuch). Eventually settled on one recycled from a fic idea that I had some years back. It's still pretty flawed and in need of fleshing out; the characters especially need more work. I still haven't even chosen names for them, which is pretty bad ^^; Still, it's got a decent start, I think.
I've been thinking a lot lately about what I really want to do with my life. Mostly it's been because of all the questions about it, especially during break time in Quire rehersals. And I've come to something of a realization:
I want to be a manga-ka.
Okay, no, that's not exactly the realization that I came to. I've known for some time that I've wanted to do something with art or writing and preferably both at once, especially if I can tell a story with it. I've also known that there's basically no way that I'd be able to make a living off of it, or even make ends meet, and I'm not going to live in my parent's basement for the rest of my life; it wouldn't be good for any of us.
The realization is that I want to do it anyway.
I've known for a while now that I would probably have to find some other job to support myself with, and I've resigned myself to it. Because of this I've been putting off choosing a major, because I always thought that it would have to have something to do with the job I'd eventually take, whatever it would be. I lacked direction for a long time, and I still do to an extent.
But now I want to try for it. I want to take as many art and writing classes as I can, and then other random classes that I think might help me with it. And when I go out into the world and find a job, it may not be exactly what I've always wanted, but I'll be working on my dream anyway. I'll be writing and drawing in my free time and hopefully coming up with something to try and publish. If I even manage to make back the money I'll have spent putting a book out I will be happy, I think. (Hope for anything more will be hidden in the back of my sock drawer--not to be taken out very often or for very long, but still there nonetheless.)
That was, of course, what I was vaguely hoping to do with Magical Girl Icka. (Well, barring the actual resolution to do it.) Except then
Scrapped more than a few of them on the basis that they Weren't Going To Happen (including one that really isn't much more than a title and the explanation behind the title--"Yo! Kaitou!" or somesuch). Eventually settled on one recycled from a fic idea that I had some years back. It's still pretty flawed and in need of fleshing out; the characters especially need more work. I still haven't even chosen names for them, which is pretty bad ^^; Still, it's got a decent start, I think.
