Currently at the bakery...
May. 23rd, 2026 12:59 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
soc_puppetThanks to everyone who expressed support on my previous post 💖 Apparently replying individually is a major mental roadblock for me right now, so I'm skipping that for the moment for the sake of actually updating for goodness' sake.
I'm still feeling emotionally better at work, and am trying to nail down what sort of accommodations I need. I worked on Sunday and Wednesday, and on Sunday I did my best to take mental note of when I started getting tired versus when I started to physically ache and so forth. On Wednesday I compared notes; I opened the day thinking to myself, "Surely my initial assessment was incorrect? I can't have been starting to flag at only four hours in and counting down the hours until I left while thinking longingly of more painkillers at six hours..." And then I hit five hours of work, and yep, that assessment held up.
That said, my mattress is also not holding up very well, which can't be helping my back recover during sleep. I don't want to rush out and get a new mattress, though, because what if that's not actually a significant part of the problem? I did work enough hours over the lead up to Mother's Day that I can afford one, but my current mattress is supposedly supposed to be viable for another four years, and it wasn't cheap. Ideally, I'd like to try out a different mattress for a night or two, but all of the spare bedrooms in my house are... kinda being used for storage 🤦♀️ One is covered in Legos and books, one in toys that my niblings play with when they visit, and one is covered in probably mostly books but honestly has been buried for over two decades at this point. IDK, I'll have to give it some more thought.
I'm still feeling emotionally better at work, and am trying to nail down what sort of accommodations I need. I worked on Sunday and Wednesday, and on Sunday I did my best to take mental note of when I started getting tired versus when I started to physically ache and so forth. On Wednesday I compared notes; I opened the day thinking to myself, "Surely my initial assessment was incorrect? I can't have been starting to flag at only four hours in and counting down the hours until I left while thinking longingly of more painkillers at six hours..." And then I hit five hours of work, and yep, that assessment held up.
That said, my mattress is also not holding up very well, which can't be helping my back recover during sleep. I don't want to rush out and get a new mattress, though, because what if that's not actually a significant part of the problem? I did work enough hours over the lead up to Mother's Day that I can afford one, but my current mattress is supposedly supposed to be viable for another four years, and it wasn't cheap. Ideally, I'd like to try out a different mattress for a night or two, but all of the spare bedrooms in my house are... kinda being used for storage 🤦♀️ One is covered in Legos and books, one in toys that my niblings play with when they visit, and one is covered in probably mostly books but honestly has been buried for over two decades at this point. IDK, I'll have to give it some more thought.
